08/04/02 02:46:36 fvewZrx9
Confused and Ashamed
I Had My First Orgasm While Being Gang Raped!
I kept physically fighting him off and telling him that though I respected him as my pastor and as a father figure I wanted him to stop.
He pushed me, tore my clothes and raped me.
One of the most disturbing things that happened that night is that I had an orgasm. Despite years of marriage, it was my first orgasm ever.
It really confused me. I thought some part of me must be mentally sick to have experienced the pleasure of an orgasm during this horrific trauma.
My only conclusion was that there was something terribly perverted and wrong with me.