08/10/15 23:44:13
My spirit has aged somehow,I am tired and sometimes everything seems dreadfully unbearable.
At some point I am going to crack my head in two.Every day I have fits as well and hysterics,
which usually end in convulsions with my face andhands twisted to the last degree...Is it really
possible to cure moral decay?Is it really possible to reform the whole nervous system?Incidentally
I tried to do it for several nights by binges and getting drunk.But that did not help and I gave
up,i.e.I decided to stop drinking like that altogether.It doesn't help and it isn't necessary.
People often tell me...`Stop getting depressed.At your age and with your talents it's simply criminal.`
But they always forget that apart from being(perhaps)a gifted musician...I am a human being like everyone
else,expecting out of life what everyone else expect...But what is more I,with the state of affairs as
they are(oh,this state of affairs!)am an unfortunate human being and as a human being I shall never be
happy,because of my character.This last I prophesy for myself in the sober conviction that it will turn
out to be so.
英文による手紙の文章です
タイプ慣れしていないので、ミスが多いと思われます
申し訳ありません
日本語訳よろしくおねがいします